Hey beautiful readers!! Howdy? Long time no hear from me. This September, eh! It’s on full throttle such that my bed is currently my happiest place on earth!! Honestly, I’ve not experienced such stretching and capacity increasing in a while. It reminds me of when I was writing up by PhD thesis. Phew!! I’m not sure how I pulled it off nor if I can pull that off again without divine intervention.
Anyhow, how are y’all doing? I hope the new school year has been great so far whether or not you’re associated with schools. Surely, you’d have seen more traffic than normal as students move between school and home. Hope you’re well, safe and sound? It would be great to hear how you’re doing in the comments. Please say hi.
For today’s post, I just thought I’ll share some of the things I’m learning in this season. As I type, I’m not sure how many I’ll share but you can count at the end. Here we go!
God can sometimes use people we find annoying to reveal a place in our hearts that still require some healing. Just yesterday (Friday) as I taught my year 8 class, final lesson for the week, a boy asked me in the middle of the lesson, “Miss, why is your voice so deep?” I almost lost it. I replied as I stood over him, leaning in closer to his face so he could see my anger, “I didn’t create myself!”
“Miss, who created you?”, he replied. I wanted to say God but I was too annoyed to carry on the conversation. Meanwhile, said lad had been acting up all lesson, not focused on his learning like he should. So, I told him to stop asking irrelevant questions and get on with his work. But I was stewing inside and while the rest of the class was engaged and excited and taking part, this boy and his pal two rows behind were acting dumb, whining that they didn’t get the work!🙄
I had no patience for either of them. The friend of my enemy is my enemy! 😁 So, I let both of them have it. They could tell I was very annoyed with them and disappointed that they couldn’t be bothered to make an effort to learn simple rounding to decimal places.
But later, when I was by myself with my thoughts, the Holy Spirit inspired me to ask myself why I found that question so triggering. And yes, I could have responded a different way I admitted. I could have said, “Your voice is too squeaky.” “My voice is the best for me.” “I’m above the norm,” etc. But after sitting with that question of my default response, I realised there was some level of discomfort, to put it mildly, if not shame, about how my voice sounded compared to other women.
That nonsense comparison mindset! Anyway, I repented and asked the Holy Spirit to heal my heart of any hurts that may have been done to me by anyone undermining my voice especially as a child growing up. I’m sure in time I’ll discover exactly where the hurt happened, forgive the perpetrators and myself, let it go, embrace the radio commercial voice God has blessed me with and enjoy it to the full!!
To your discovering any hidden heart wounds, . . .
The Good Handshake 